‘This can’t last. This misery can’t last. I must remember that and try to control myself. Nothing lasts, really. Neither
happiness nor despair. Not even life lasts very long. There’ll come a time in the future when I shan’t mind about this
anymore. When I can look back and say quite peacefully how silly I was. No, no, I don’t want that time to come, ever.
I want to remember every minute. Always. Always, to the end of my days.’